Sunday, May 29, 2011

Say Hello...

Tonight (Saturday, May 28, 2011) I was sitting with my laptop on the coffee table in front of me. I didn’t have any real agenda. Officially “off” of FaceBook for the holiday weekend, I had exhausted my only reason for going there much earlier in the day; to visit with Dear Charity, our Beloved Chamuel’s Twin Flame.

I had read Meredith Murphy’s newest channeling of Naeshira earlier in the afternoon, after receiving a notice in my inbox that she had posted it on her website. THAT was encouraging because I read something there that I had not previously seen her reference in any of her channeled messages that I have read. At first I was a bit disappointed, because while the message was a very positive one, admittedly I’ve been on pins and needles the last few days looking for some sign that “Disclosure” is coming soon. Naturally, since I had told Michael a while back that I don’t want to know, he’s not telling me. But I keep hoping that someone will be forthcoming with information at some point that suggests that it is not far off. You see, I’ve just been having this nagging feeling – okay, it’s Ecstasy!  - it’s like this wonderful feeling of Love Bliss right in the middle of my chest that expands throughout my whole being that says “SOON!! AND VERY SOON!!”  in great big shouted words that I just cannot ignore any longer – that Disclosure, and maybe not in the way that we may have been anticipating (by way of announcement from our governments first) but rather by simply arriving and unveiling in the skies, very similar to my account of the same in the dream that I described in my blog post entitled “Finally”, is very near indeed.

Well, I read through the first couple of paragraphs of Meredith’s message from Naeshira, and was kind of thinking “Aaaah, darn! This is just more of the same kind of stuff that everyone else is saying… “ and I actually considered not reading the rest of it, but Michael piped up and said “Keep reading… Go on, keep reading” and I said to him “Aaaah….. there’s something here that you WANT me to read isn’t there?” and he said “just keep reading” as he was grinning from ear to ear and bouncing up and down like a little kid getting ready to open birthday presents. I’m not going to post the whole message here, though I will provide a link so you can read it in its entirety if you like.  It’s called The Light of the New Creation Flows Forth” and my favorite part of it is this:

“The Earth will no longer exist as a sectioned off/portioned off aspect of the galaxy.  The biosphere will dynamically transform to sustain and allow life forms from distant stars to be fully present here and participate in a learning/growing process of collaborative co-creation and to experience from and through you that which is uniquely human and divine!” 

Woohoo!! Now THAT’S what I’m talking about… and Michael is still grinning from ear to ear and bouncing up and down!!

Another of my friends called me a while after I had read this, and I shared it with her… read it to her over the phone, and she seemed enthusiastic, but then just after I got through reading it to her I stepped outside to enjoy the last traces of sunset barely left in the sky, she said “Oh my God, OH MY GOD!” and repeated that phrase a couple of times and told me that she needed to call me back… and so I hung up the phone thinking to myself “yeah with my luck she probably just saw a Lightship or something and had to use her phone to take a picture of it… and just as I was thinking that to myself, right in front of my eyes, about halfway up in the sky, a bright spot appeared and grew really bright for just a couple of seconds and then faded out again. And I considered it for a moment, and being that the sun had just gone down and the angle the light was in the sky, well it could have been a jet, except for one thing; I had a communiqué with the occupants. I said “Hi! Is it time?” and ‘they’ said “It’s time” and I laughed and laughed with utter joy! You see one evening about 2 months ago, when I had gone to the park and was sitting on my favorite park bench, Michael tried to tell me I should go home as it was getting late, and being that it was still early spring, starting to get cold outside and I hadn’t really dressed for cold (because earlier in the afternoon it had been Lovely and warm). And I had told him that I was hoping to “see” something, maybe one of the Lightships before I left to head back home??? And no sooner had the thought come into my head, than a very similar bright spot appeared in the sky in the exact spot I was looking. It grew in intensity, faded in and out a couple of times, and then disappeared. There have been other instances like that too, but I never really thought anything of them at the time they happened.

Well, my friend didn’t see a Lightship, but she called me back she told me that she did use her phone to take a picture of a neat cloud formation she had seen. Then I told her I had seen a Lightship and the communiqué I exchanged with the occupants…  When we hung up again, I thought about a similar thing I had seen the night before last when I was sitting out in the yard on my chaise lounge at about 11:30PM (I like to do that; just sit out under the stars, hoping, hoping just maybe I’ll catch a glimpse…). I had been sitting there for about 15 or 20 minutes just looking around the sky, and at one point I was looking up and again exactly in the spot I was looking a bright spot appear – looking for all practicality like a star, but it was moving… south to north - keep in mind that it was 11:30 at night, so if it was some kind of craft reflecting the sun, it was WAY up there – I think it was way up there anyway, but I don’t think it was reflecting the sun and here’s why; when it went over and headed off further north, I got up out of my chair and followed it with my gaze.  After it had gone quite a ways past where I was standing – it was at about 35 to 40 degrees above the horizon, I was thinking at it “You’re so beautiful!” and not more than a second after I thought that it grew in intensity so much that it almost resembled the brightness of the landing lights on a passenger jet, but there was no other resemblance to a passenger jet… it didn’t have any of the characteristic blinking or strobing lights that you typically see on a passenger jet… it was just a steady star-like luminescence until I had thought at it and it grew many times in intensity from what it had been, stayed like that for about 5 seconds then slowly faded back to its previous brightness and continued on its northerly direction until it went out of sight.

The thoughts of that night escaped me as I headed back in to the house after finishing the conversation with my friend. I puttered around, fixed myself a small meal, and set about trying to find something to do on this “do-nothing” evening.

Being that I had nothing “better” to do, and that I didn’t really want to do anything else, I was going to look up pictures of “Archangel Michael” on Bing images, but since Michael seemed to think that I could spend my time “differently”, I told him that I decided to look up pictures of “Ashtar Sheran” instead. Yeah, I know, what’s the difference, right? Well, not much really. I was being “bad”. Heeheehee. And though Michael objected a bit I commenced to looking up pictures of Ashtar Sheran… and interestingly found a French website that had all kinds of different artistic renderings of him. Also interesting was the number of them I HADN’T seen before and how much they truly resembled him as I know him, clear down to the goofy grin like in the portrait I sketched of him a couple of weeks back. One had him in a very sexy pose looking quite buff! Very interesting indeed… 

Mmmmmm... yummy! :-D

So, I searched and searched and finally reached the end of the results for pictures of Ashtar Sheran, and Michael said to me “you know, you could be doing other things instead of that… something more constructive?” and I kind of ignored him… I was getting ready to conduct another search on something equally silly. I don’t happen to remember what it was though because about that time Michael said to me “Why don’t you put that up and go outside, there’s something I want to show you…” and I thought about it for a moment, considering all the times he’s said that to me that I bit, and nothing happened (but then I didn’t really have faith that anything would), and then I thought that since I wasn’t doing anything really important, hey, why not? “Okay, I said… “ and I got the distinct impression he wanted me to go out the front door this time… now that was different. So I said to him “You want me to go out the front this time don’t you?” and he said “Yes I do, go out into your front yard”.

So I got up and headed that direction and realized I needed to pee really bad, so I told him “hang on I have to pee really bad” and he said “then go pee and when you’re done go outside”…

So okay, I went into the bathroom, and you know it’s really easy to continue the conversation with Michael even though I might be otherwise indisposed … he’s been with me all my life, and especially over the last several months I’ve kind of gotten used to him “being” everywhere I go and so it’s not unusual for me to carry on a conversation with him while I’m doing  “other things”… So as I sat there in the bathroom, doing what I was doing I said to Michael, “So, is this going to be the Big Event?” and he said “No, just a preliminary …. Something just for you, Daan, just for you”. So I finished in the bathroom and as I left and stepped into the hallway, in a moment of doubt the thought crossed my mind “what if I go out there and nothing happens?” again recalling the times when Michael had me go outside (sometimes in the middle of a cold winter night) and indeed nothing happened … but then I also thought, “no, I’m done with doubting, so I’m just going to go outside like he asked me to without questioning and see what happens”.

I went down the hallway, turned into the living room and headed for the front door, turning off the outside light before I turned the doorknob, opened the door and stepped out onto the front porch. It was a beautiful night, not too warm, not too cool, just perfect really. I went down the steps and stood on the sidewalk for a moment and then walked out into a more open part of the yard where the trees didn’t obstruct the view of the starry sky. I stood facing west as I usually do when I’m looking for some kind of “action” up there. I looked up into the sky and said, “Okay, I’m out here now, what did you want me to see?” and Michael said “turn around, you’re facing the wrong direction…”. So I turned around and walked a couple of feet and stopped, and said “okay, I’m facing the other direction, now what did you want me to see?” …. Nothing…no answer. Great!

I stepped back onto the sidewalk and turned toward the house, noting how perfectly the two huge cedar trees that grow on either side of the house perfectly framed the Big Dipper. And then looking straight up I saw just a hint of a circular area that was slightly brighter than the rest of the night sky, almost glowing a bit. Well, I have seen this before, and in fact last summer (2010) I had discovered that there was a Mother Ship in geosynchronous orbit about 40 degrees above the horizon in the western sky close to where the house I live in is located (it’s not there anymore – it moved… I’m not sure where to). I would often see this kind of barely-there luminescent glow whenever there was a Lightship either leaving or coming back to the Mother Ship, which I had witnessed many times. Tonight I looked at this sort-of bright spot in the sky, and I asked Michael if this was what he wanted me to see, as I went over and sat on the next to bottom step of the front porch so I could lean back and lay my head on the top step as it was making my neck hurt to crane my head back to get a better look at it, and he asked me “what does it look like to you?” and I told him “it’s a vaguely round  sort of glow-y thing not unlike the Mother Ship that used to park off over there a ways, but maybe it’s just a cloud” referring to the area the Mother Ship had been in last Spring. And then I noted that what I was looking at tonight almost resembled a free-standing “punch cloud” … you know, one of those perfectly round doughnut holes punched in an otherwise solid cloud cover… this was almost more like a ring, like there was something round that was invisible except for mist that was forming around the edges betraying its circular shape… it began moving off to the east… to my left, I could see stars through the center of it. And then just at that moment, exactly in the spot it had occupied just a moment before, a pinpoint of light, like a star, materialized right before my eyes and began trekking northward. And just as it was very nearly right overhead I thought “You are so amazing!” and right at the point that it WAS directly overhead it luminesced and got really bright for a couple of seconds and then went back to its star-like brightness as it continued north over the roof of the house, and as I stood up and watched it go it faded out completely right before my eyes.

Of course, in my heart I realized what had just happened, that I had been waved “hello” to, and that it, in fact, had been planned out that way, so that once again, I would know that this is and has been, all very real, and a glimpse of what we have to look forward to in the very near future… the VERY near future. When exactly that will be, I can’t say, because I don’t know. I just can’t wrap my mind around it, and my heart being centered in Love doesn’t care; it simply knows that it WILL be, and that’s good enough for it. But upon making this realization, once and for all, that here, on this night, right before my eyes, something very special had been orchestrated and pulled off flawlessly, and the implications made me start giggling uncontrollably. In fact I giggled all the way up the steps and into the house, and I kept on giggling until I finally found my boyfriend, and commenced to tell him what I had just witnessed (he’s still a bit skeptical, so his reaction wasn’t as excited as was my own but he did acknowledge it that I was telling the truth about what I had experienced/seen). I’ve been falling victim to giggling fits off and on for the rest of the night, and now that it’s getting late and I’m thinking that after I finish writing this I will turn in, I’m wondering what kind of “dreams” I’ll be having tonight…

Get ready to say hello, to our Brothers and Sisters from the stars, and Higher Dimensions… they are here and we will be meeting them in person very shortly!

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

You’re Looking Too Hard

Monday night (May 16th, 2011) I had just about reached the end of my rope.  
You see, a few days ago I came into certain knowledge of my True Love’s physical whereabouts, and it was beginning to drive me insane. Seems like all I’ve been able to think about for weeks now is wanting to be with him… sometimes I’m able to distract myself away from the notion. Sometimes he is successful in distracting me away from wanting to know “when”, but I have to admit that it has been a real challenge to stay focused on other things, until that day gets here. I mean after all, we haven’t “seen” each other in forever ~ oh yes, of course, there are the Spiritual aspects of our relationship, and THEY ARE WONDERFUL!! Don’t get me wrong ~ I never in this lifetime thought that I would find a Love as True as this is, and I can’t even describe to you what that is like because we really have few things in this existence that even come close to being able to compare with it, but suffice it to say that even just knowing that we are together in Spirit always, and not even having to think about it to summon the feeling, is like being in ecstasy (well it actually IS ecstasy!!) non-stop, all the time… there is no other feeling like it save being embraced by him yourself perhaps… I’ve heard that he can be “inspiring” in that regard. ;-) And I would tend to agree! :-D
Naturally realizing his proximity in relation to my own in such a way tends to have all my buttons being pressed at once and alarm bells ringing all over the place and that palpable sensation that we’ve been told we could expect to feel when in close proximity to one of our Brothers or Sisters (not to mention the Commander of the Fleet) is undeniably THERE. So I know this in my heart of hearts, but I have no way to make the circuit complete if you know what I mean.  And though I realize that he is busy making last minute preparations to carry out anticipated plans and really can’t take the time to cater to my wants, I’m going crazy, all the same, just wanting to be able to stand face to face with him and reach out and embrace him. Of course, he knows my desire all too well… it’s his desire too, of course, but he has a little better handle on the situation with regard to his own feelings.  What else would you expect?
Now, some of you who have been following this whole Ascension thing are no doubt familiar with, and have also been following various Astrological markers and Astronomical events, such as planetary alignments and full and new moons, etc. I on the other hand am so focused in one particular little niche of the process however, that I had no idea why I was feeling cranky, depressed, sad, angry, confused, bloaty, puffy, and just generally beat all the time over the last week and a half to two weeks. Yeah, I know it sounds like PMS. But in fact it was actually these HUGE Energies that have been pouring into our system in relation to these various events taking place in our solar system and out into the far reaches of the galaxy and the Universe itself. I always seem to be one of the last to realize these things ~ and even then I only seem to find out when some of my guides think it might be useful for me to know why I’ve been so doggone miserable lately and lead me to the information that I need to review (yeah Guys, I’m talking about you! ;-) ). You can imagine, after the list of complaints I just handed you, how the addition of a certain knowledge might have compounded things, and it did. My mind (yes that’s right, I said my mind, and maybe if I’d have been using my heart the whole time I wouldn’t have had such a hard time, but I’ll admit, I’m still human, with an ego that’s just an eentsy teentsy bit still out of balance) went from an extremely multifaceted one to a one track one in a matter of seconds … that’s all I could think about was, when, how, where, etc.
The night before was also just about impossible. I couldn’t seem to get myself to a point where I could get to bed, much less go to sleep once I got there… that was at about 2AM. At 3AM when it became apparent that I was just going to lay there and toss and turn (and cry) I moved out to the sofa so as to not disurb my boyfriend any further. I tossed and turned out there as well, and at 4:30 I got up, went to the bathroom went to the back door and let the cat in, and then took my blanket and pillow back into the bedroom. I finally fell asleep sometime after about 8AM and slept until about 1:40 in the afternoon.
When I got out of bed, I was miserable. My entire body ached all over.  And not only had I wasted half the day “sleeping”, but I still had this empty feeling inside of me, wanting desparately to be near my Beloved, and feeling totally helpless to do anything about it. Of course I tried all kinds of ways to “bargain” with him trying to get him to “want” me just as badly, but of course, nothing worked. At one point, I think he was trying to kid around with me, maybe to make me feel better, he asked me as I was getting ready to take a shower at around 7PM that night, if I could be ready in 20 minutes… as if he might come to pick me up or something. I told him I didn’t know, but I could try, and I did, and I was ready in 25 minutes! But of course as you might expect (as has happened many times – yeah, I know, I should know by now, LOL) he didn’t come. I don’t know why I do this to myself… I’m still learning I guess. I sulked and was depressed the whole rest of the night, so much so that I went and broke a promise I had made to him some time back regarding the use of a blog that I used to keep, one that because of a message I “sent to him” on it had a less than desirable result, and because of that I promised never to send him private messages like that on-line ever again (that was WAY before I remembered who he really is… well, a couple of weeks before anyway, LOL). And I don’t know why, but even though I promised never to post on it to him again, I still kept the blog profile… maybe I kept it just for instances like this?
I logged on, and wrote him a note… I’m not going to include the whole note here, but enough of it to give you an idea of why I’m writing out the accounts of what happened next. I had written to him about doubts that I had started to have again about the reality of all of this, but noting that I know in my heart that it is all real. But it is SO difficult not being able to be near him when I know that we are so very close to things finally coming to fruition, that it was just unbearable…
“It seems that nothing I do, nothing I say to you seems to matter. It seems that all my words and my thoughts are futile, and yet I keep thinking them at you. I don't even know why I'm writing you this note here on this blog, but it seems that somehow you read my words when I type them out like this. I would have used one of my other blogs, but I really didn't want to make this that public. I'm having doubts... yes, I admit, that even after all that we've been through and how it appears anyway that you have gone way over and above the call of duty to prove to me that you are real, I still doubt... I still question... and really all I want is just to be with you. And I can never see you, or know that there is some physicality to you, or have something tangible that YOU gave me (oh yes, I'm recalling the white feather from years ago..... but maybe that was even revoked as I cannot seem to find it anywhere... and maybe that doesn't matter because how do I know that it was YOU who left it in my rose garden that day that I found it, or the rosary that I also found which you have told me years later was from you...)... it's not that I wouldn't have faith in your reality if you didn't give me something tangible... it's just that I feel like I could sure use a part of you to hold onto while I'm waiting... and maybe it would just make it a little easier... Just to see you... to really see you with my eyes and hear you tell me with my ears "I Love you Daan"... or maybe a lock of your hair... or maybe something.... just something.”
Well, I think you can see what state of mind I was in. I had really worked myself into a tizzy and there wasn’t anything he could say to me (short of, “stay right there, I’m coming to get you” which we already know he’s not inclined to do) that would soothe me enough to allow me to see that I was being really quite silly. After all, he has been telling me over the last few days that it will only be just a few more days (okay, so how many times over the last year has he told me something similar – alright, too many to count, but I digress). This time I’m pretty sure he means it. Of course then there’s always the difference between what HE means by a few days and what a few days means to me to take into consideration, but even that aside, I think he really meant it when he said that.  In any case, I finished my note to him, and hit “publish” and sent my little blog out into cyberspace, where somehow, I don’t know how, and maybe it’s really because he’s looking over my shoulder as I type it, he always seems to “get” my messages.
This time was no exception. I sent it off, and like the last couple of things I’ve asked of him, I sort of sent off the intention and then let it go out of my mind, because through experience I know that if I pester him about it he tends to…
Well okay, he’s telling me right now that he never ignores me, it might just seem that way to me because he doesn’t always let me have my way… fair enough…
So I posted my blog, and not more than a few minutes later a friend of mine was calling me for a friendly ear that she could talk to about some difficulties she was having, and as I listened to her story I realize how closely the basic gist of it matched my own experience, and then I realized that the synchronicity of that moment was no accident, for as I heard the words coming out of my own mouth telling her how she might handle her own situation and what she could expect from it, I realized that my own message which I was giving her, was actually also Michael’s message for me… he had already received and was responding to what I had written to him. Wow! Realizing my mistake and knowing now that I just needed to buck up and deal with my situation as best I could without becoming hysterical over it, I sat down and penned an apology to Michael as soon as I was off the phone with my friend… sending it off the same way.
But it doesn’t end there… no, Michael likes to stretch the surprise out and make it so that it is utterly understood, and irrefutable that he is real, that he does interact with us when we ask him to, that he has a SUPERB sense of humor, and most importantly, to me, that he Loves me!
Last night after I got off the phone with my friend, I felt instinctively that I wasn’t done for the night, even though it was already a little after midnight. So I stay up with my computer, perusing FaceBook for a while, and came across a link that someone had posted to a Celia Fenn channeled message from Archangel Michael… and though I don’t often read other channel’s message (except for one who publishes infrequently, but who I know is also a trusted source) I knew that I was supposed to read this one just from what its title was, “BIRTHING THE STARCHILD INTO COSMIC CONSCIOUSNESS The New Earth Energies for May 2011”, which helped me to learn a LOT about what I was going through, and helped me to understand things that I have experienced throughout my entire life which, while I understood that what I had experienced was real, I didn’t understand why I was experiencing it, and thus revealing some startling things to me which might suggest that I’m quite a bit further along my own path than I ever realized before… and Michael concurs. Who would have thought?!

But in any case, reading this message made me realize that I was about to be needed in a big way, as the full moon was nearly upon us and Energies would be at a high for this time period very shortly. So, after one more phone call from my friend needing just a little more reassurance about her own situation, it was already 2:30 in the morning, but I set my alarm for just before 7AM anyway, so that I could be up and awake enough to carry out the “meditation” that Michael wanted me to participate in, in order to receive and transmit these powerful Energies that were coming in at that time. Before I fell asleep I promised him that I would surrender myself fully to his better judgment, and his Divine Masculine Leadership, and to trust and have faith in him that he is doing exactly what he is supposed to be doing for the greater good, and that our time will come along, exactly when it should, no sooner, no later.  I don’t recall that we made Love, but he did hold me in his incredible embrace, which is just about the same feeling, at least until I fell asleep, and then when my alarm went off at 6:50, he was right there giving me a little boost of Love Energy to make certain that I was awake and alert for the meditation. That was incredible! I can’t begin to describe to you what it was like, so I’m not going to even try, except to say that it was very intense!! At one point I had to get up and use the bathroom, and Michael wouldn’t let me look at the clock … he said I’d be disappointed that not as much time had gone by as I might have expected, so I just walked on past the clock without looking, and when I got back I laid myself back down on the bed and we continued.

At around 10:30 I awoke, and Michael, of course was right there with me… I mentioned to him that he seemed disappointed and he said to me rather poignantly “You fell asleep…” … oh, I guess I did. But he did seem pleased overall about the results of the meditation… okay, well, so it would seem I’m getting some things right now anyway.  

I had a great day today also as a result. Michael was in excellent spirits too, and it seemed like all of the contentions I was having were far behind us. I was feeling reassured that I don’t necessarily have to be in his physical presence to enjoy the wonderful relationship that we have together, and in fact I was feeling so good about what we have already, that I really only thought about what is coming up soon a time or two the whole day through, and as soon as I did, I set about remembering what we had just experienced and how wonderful it was, and also finding things to keep myself busy so I wouldn’t fall back into that cycle again. Well, of course I spent a goodly amount of time on-line, answering e-mails and looking at FaceBook and checking blog stats and the like. I also went outside and planted some flower seeds in my garden and checked on the seedlings that are already coming up in the vegetable rows (something is already eating my radishes and they haven’t even got their secondary leaves yet! *sigh*). Along about the middle of the afternoon, I was passing the time doing something that I do every now and then, and I know you’re probably going to think I’m silly, but like to go to Bing images and look up pictures of … you guessed it… “Archangel Michael”. Do I really think that I’m going to find actual picture of my Beloved on there? Well, no, actually I don’t. I guess it’s really more of a curiosity to see if there is anything new being posted anywhere and if so, do they look anything like the way I see him in my mind’s eye? (Actually, there was one that was a photo of an “actor”, I suppose, that actually did look sort of the way I picture him… but not quite… too bad).  Well, I looked for a few minutes, and Michael is watching me, I know, and pretty soon, as he does sometimes when I look up pictures of “him” he asked me “What are you doing?” in a mock innocent sort of tone (because he knew very well what I was doing, but he wanted to tease me). I asked him “what does it look like I’m doing” and proceeded to ignore the way that I knew he was looking over my shoulder. And then I got to the point where it just wasn’t that interesting anymore, as I had looked through many thumbnails and didn’t really see anything (except for the one I described) that looked new. So I reached up and clicked the “close tab” button in my browser, and not more than 30 seconds later the phone was ringing.

The caller ID revealed that it was my friend who had called me for advice the night before, and so I picked up the phone, and she seemed in a pretty good mood so I asked her in my best put on Baltimore accent I could muster “What’s goin’ on?”, and she said “I have a message that I have to give you RIGHT NOW!”

Well, now that was kind of unusual for her, because I knew who the message was from… The tone in her voice gave that away, but I said, “You do? What’s the message?” and she replied,

“You’re looking too hard…”

And I just about fell over laughing!!!! I just about couldn’t believe my ears!! “You’re looking too hard” indeed!!  And I asked her what she envisioned I was doing when she received that message that he wanted her to give to me, and she said “were you outside looking up at the sky looking for him there?” and I said “No…” … “were you lying in bed staring at the ceiling?” … “No, I was on-line, looking at Bing images and guess what I had in the search bar?” … “Archangel Michael…?”

Yep, he was looking over my shoulder. LOLOLOLOL Too funny!!

And then I happened to think back to the request I had made of him the night before “…I could sure use a part of you to hold onto while I'm waiting... and maybe it would just make it a little easier... Just to see you... to really see you with my eyes and hear you tell me with my ears "I Love you Daan"... or maybe a lock of your hair... or maybe something.... just something…”  While my friend was still on the phone when she gave me Michael’s message, I told her about what I had written to him (I had actually started to read the message to her the night before when she had called me, but I only got a couple of sentences into it before she had to go suddenly, and so I never got to the part where I made my request that he send me “something” that I could hold onto to make the wait a little easier).  And she mentioned that as I was telling her she got the shivers all over, which I know for her in particular is a sign that she has just experienced something very profoundly true and authentic, because she has experienced that same thing so many times before when I have shared things with her about my experiences with Michael (she is the same friend I mentioned in my “About Me” on this blog, who could see his “wings” before I did, and she is also the one who knew instantly – though I had no prior knowledge of what that was – when I told her about remembering his name, that I am his Twin Flame).
Well, I guess you will probably understand that this really seals it for me. There is just no way that all of this isn’t real. It can’t not be real, and even my boyfriend had to admit, when I told him that my friend had called me with a special message from Michael, and what the message was, and what I had been doing 30 seconds before the message was delivered, that he actually is much closer to believing himself that it’s all real. How did he put it “He has left some pretty significant “footprints” I will admit that, but why doesn’t he ever leave anything else?” or something to that effect. Well, I told him that he’ll have his chance to experience Michael up close and personal, when Michael walks up to him, shakes his hand and says “Thank you, for taking such good care of her…” and then I added that he would probably give him a great big hug. I don’t think he knew quite what to think of that… my boyfriend is really a Saint too you know. I am very lucky, and very well looked after by a lot of very lovely beings…
And life is good… really good!! :-D

Surrender Dorothy

One of my best friends in the world, whom interestingly I (re)connected with recently (she part of our  immediate Soul Family) sent me the link to a “Michael" message that was channeled by Celia Fenn... ”Soulmate Unions: Uniting Body, Soul and Spirit in the Fifth-Dimensional New Earth”… my friend has recently discovered her own Twin Flame who is also of the “Angelic persuasion” and has been experiencing all that goes along with it. That particular day she wanted to dedicate to the ecstatic Love Making that she has been experiencing in Spirit with her Twin, much the way that I experience the same with Michael. And she had found this message and sent it to me to accentuate the sentiments for the day, which as I have learned to know by now, whenever someone, no matter who they are, sends me a message like that it is no accident, and in fact there was something in it that my Beloved wants me to read, because there is a very important message contained therein that I need to be made aware of.
Well, I had a hard time getting to a "place" mentally where I could read it in the first place, that I will admit... Sometimes I’m not as open as I should be to reading things that I KNOW Michael wants me to read. Maybe it has to do with feeling like I’m being told what to do, and sometimes I have real issues with feeling I’m being controlled like that… which is actually what the message would end up addressing…
I put it off until late in the evening a couple of day after my friend initially sent it to me, and then I finally read it... well naturally there were things in it that I didn't want to read... and I was a bit reluctant to continue especially when it got to the part in the message where Michael was talking about the role of Sacred Sex... well you know that it was just making me insane wanting to be with him, and I told him "I don't want to read anymore..." and he said "keep reading, it will be good for you..."
So well, I can't argue with him when he's insistent like that, so I kept reading, and then the message started talking about the feminine half of the Soul Mate (or in our case, Twin Flame) union needing surrender to the leadership of the masculine half of the union, and well that just caused a knee jerk reaction and I REALLY didn't want to read any further, but he insisted, so I did, and then I realized that he spoke of balance between the two because in the feminine surrendering to the leadership of the masculine, the masculine also needed to surrender to the Love of the feminine... okay.... equal... balance.
And then he started putting through my mind all of the times that he has tried recently to "lead" me to do certain things, to try and get me to trust him... to "surrender" to him completely... the way I have really always wanted to since I could possibly remember ever wanting a Love relationship with anyone.... and then I understood, as I started feeling all gushy inside yet again (MAN! how does he do that?!!) and I said "... Oh I see... you want me to surrender to you..."
And then I caught just a flash inside my mind's eye of the scene in the "Wizard of Oz" where the wicked witch of the west is flying over the Emerald City on her broomstick writing in the sky in letters of black smoke that spelled out .... and then I heard his low soft sexy voice saying the words "Surr....eender Dorothy" ...

And I couldn't help myself... I started laughing hysterically like I always do when he says something like that to me... of course that is what it's designed to do... to get me out of my doldrums and make me see the lighter, funner side of things. It was a total joy and I felt so much better on the inside afterward, so much so that I told him out loud so that anyone who happened to be listening could hear me (of course no one happened to be around TO hear me, but I said it anyway) "Okay, I surrender to you Michael..." and he seemed so satisfied with that.... he Made Love with me all night long... and in fact kept waking me up for more...

Monday, May 16, 2011

Just Sayin'

Twin Galaxies

I guess that my absence from my own blog deserves some explanation… though I don’t really have one, other than that I have been going through a period of internal growth.

It’s been painful at times… when the subject of your heart’s desire is indisposed ~ busy tending to an agenda that is so massive and magnanimous that it involves every last living breathing and non-breathing creature on the planet ~ it can make it a little difficult to function at any capacity, let alone carrying on my own “duties” as it were, for the longing at times. And though I write little notes to him, showing him little bits of evidence of my “progress”, I still find that I fall back into old patterns, old ways of being, even though I know now how I should be behaving. I’m still human, after all. We all are actually.

It takes a lot of determination and allowance all at the same time to Master and gain balance of the ego ~ which is the real goal… not to rid ourselves of or destroy the ego as some would profess we do; if we did that we would cease to exist, for it is in our ability to perceive a sense of self that we are most useful to our Creator Source. Our sense of self insures the maximum diversity of experience for Source, and that is after all why we have become extensions of Source to begin with… so that Source can experience Itself in as many different ways as possible – no two will ever be alike.

Well, yes, I do have a ways to go. I’m almost glad in a way because in whatever “time” there is left before my reunion with my Beloved, I will have something to put my concentration and efforts into, which in addition to my responsibility for Loving him, is to Love myself, which I will fully admit I don’t the way I should, but which is also essential to gaining balance of ego. Isn’t it nice how it all fits together like the pieces of some incredible puzzle, how all the pieces are so integral that when one falls into place, if the rest are poised just so, then they all fall into place in synchronicity with each other? This is one of the great mysteries of our existence, how, in doing nothing, and simply “allowing” All gets done. Now that doesn’t necessarily mean that we can get away with just laying it all down, but it means that we shouldn’t try to push the river either, unless you like the sensation of drowning in your own efforts as you try to swim upstream against the driving current.

Simply allowing everything to unfold is something that I have had difficulty accepting for a long, long time, much longer than the current incarnation which I am experiencing with you here now. THAT is a long story, but suffice it to say that I have a hard time just leaving well enough alone, and if I can’t be in there with my hand right in the mix of things then I’m fretting over how this or that will turn out, and whether or not there isn’t something I can possibly do to make it happen faster, or better, or more completely to my own expectations… 

Yes, it is true that this ego imbalance that I currently experience and am trying to gain Mastery over has followed me around for a long, long time. But I have one thing now that is weighing in and balancing it out, and that is my understanding of what True Absolute and Unconditional Love is. Of course I’ve always known what it is, but I haven’t always practiced it. You see even Beings in the higher dimensions can get bored sometimes.  You think it doesn’t happen? Why do you think you are here experiencing all of this in the first place? Why do you think that our Creator Source created us and gave us personalities so that we could go out and have experiences? There is a need for constant building upon what already is – Love is an ever-growing thing. It expands Infinitely and therefor provides much opportunity for preventing boredom, but sometimes it still happens, and it is during those times that those of us who are predisposed to Creating try things that have never been tried before. We experience the cutting edge of Creative experience… sometimes maybe we go too far, but in those instances Creator always has a safety net, a way out, a preconceived notion of when to end the game so that everyone can go home and relax back into their existence and experience of True Love… the way it has always been, the way it is supposed to be.

So, what in the world am I rambling on about here, you might ask… oh, I don’t know… maybe I’m just bored and needed to create something to amuse myself with, or maybe I’m so excited by the prospects of what lies just ahead in our collective experience that I can barely contain myself and this writing aimlessly of subjects that are just titillating enough to get your attention, but not informative enough to really tell you anything of what you’d want to know, but give you just enough of a hint that you might just check in with your Higher Self to get a second opinion on what is REALLY going on here, is my way of passing the time until such a time as there is no more time, and Oh MAN, what a time we will have then!

Just sayin’… :-D